Jenna

An overview of the summer...

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 15:29:06 GMT

As we are being pounded by thunderstorms here on LBI, i thought it was a good time to catch up with my regular readers...i'm sure you are so interested to see what has been going on in my life this summer.

This is probably the hardest summer ever. My first real long time coming home from school and i think it sucks big time. May went really well actually. Resteraunt wasn't open full time yet so i was working on weekends. I had a lot of time to myself with my mom at her other job and my dad in NY. So i still had the independce and privacy I had at school. I got to see Wes a lot because my parents allowed him to come here..he stayed for the night or so and I would be able to go visit him every so often. We were able to sit around and watch movies or plain old sit around. It was wonderful. I thoguht..hey..this is going to be a great summer...I'll be able to hang out with my boyfriend..I'm no manager for a resteraunt...and even my parents and I were getting along. I was happy to be home.

Then Mid-June hit. The resteraunt opened full swing and suddenly I've got the same responsibilities as I had last year when i was considered "manager". NOt only was i now only getting the server's wage...but i was putting in the same amount of work as I was last year when i was getting paid more.

For some reason in my crazy mind I thought it would be a great idea for Wes to come work at the resteraunt on the weekends. This way we would have our weekends to hang out and he'd still be making money. I also thought it would be a great way for him and my mom to form some sort of psuedo-relationship. HA! I must have been high on life cause boy did THAT backfire. THe first weekend went really well. We weren't too busy so he was multitasking in the kitchen and didn't mind. Second weekend hit and we got slammed and he got flustered. He thought by talking to my mom about it things would be alright but nope...didn't. The shit hit the fan and by 12 noon when i went home for a few hours i got a phone call saying that he was leaving, coming here to pick up his stuff, and go home.

Just when you think things are going great you get slammed in the face with a wooden plank. I give in my phone, the keys to my car and the house, and say that i am leaving home. (sometimes i am so smart...right?) well yea...didn't realize the repercussions of my actions. Leaving home=no car, no money, no college, no family, no HOME! So yea..smoothed (or so i thought) things over with the family and i thought everything was going to be ok. I was still allowed to see Wes, got my own phone, and had hope in things turning up. Then there was a mix up of..who let who take the car to see Wes and whatnot. Now they take away the car. Not allowed to take it to collingswood...EVER..ever. So now its all up to Wes to come here to see me...and him not being allowed in the house REALLY does us wonders. You may think on LBI that there are a million things for a couple to do...but when you live here you find that there is NOTHING to do. So we sat at the bay a lot..which actually turned out to be quite enjoyable...saw a movie sometimes..bowling...mini golf. It is still so hard not to be able to sit around and watch tv or movies.

Every other day I am threatened that if i dont come home every weekend in September to work in the resteraunt that they are going to take away the car i use and i wont be able to take it to school...let me tell you how much i LOVE that. They don't want me to buy a car...but i know that even if i COULD buy the car i use NOW off of them they'd still threated to take it away..OR take me off the insurance plan. Make that everyday i am threatened with that.

So basically realizing that I had no life..i was kind of forced into playing CATS at surflight theater. I was robbed frankly. 200 a week they say..didn't say i was going to be put on the books. First pay check comes and its for 162...they take 38 DOLLARS out in taxes...what crap. 7 shows a week..3 hours a show...thats 21 hours of work a week. i can make 162$ in 2 days at the resteraunt. So my week consisted of work the sandbox in the morning, come home..sleep for 3 hours...go play Cats..come home...sleep..and do that over and over and over again for three weeks. I had no life whatsoever. Actually..i STILL have no life. hhaahaha

I haven't been able to hang out with any friends since May. I doubt i will until school starts anyway. I have a week off in August next week and i'm gonna go spend some time with Wes. It will be very relaxing cause where i will be there will be no cell phone service so it will be off. I'll sleep in...do nothing..maybe just sleep all day..that is my kind of vacation.

I go back to school in four weeks and i can't WAIT! I can't wait to see everyone again and i can't wait to be on my own again. I actually can't wait to play regularly again.

So in a nutshell that is my summer. There is not much..mostly all bad.

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 23:43:30 GMT

A is for age: 19 in 38 days
B is for boyfriend: Wes
C is for career: Band Teacher
D is for dad's name: Vinny
E is for essential item to bring to a party: yourself
F is for favorite song at the moment: nina sky-move your body
G is for girlfriend: N/A
H is for hometownstar: runner? baaaaaaad site
I is for instruments you play: french horn violin piano and many others
J is for jam or jelly you like: none
K is for kids: an older and then a set of twins
L is for living arrangements: home in the summer..on campus during school
M is for mom's name: Dana
N is for name of your best friend: Wes
O is for overnight hospital stays: none
P is for phobia: heights
Q is for quote you like: Live for the moment
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: Wes Peek-on and off for 2 1/1 years..goin strong for almost 6 months
S is for sexual position:
T is for time you wake up: cracka dawn for weeerk
U is for unique trait: dunno
V is for vegetable you love: ugh...vegetables
W is for worst habit: laziness
X is for x-rays you've had: mouth, arm, lungs
Y is for yummy food you make: italiano
Z is for zodiac sign: virgo

Thu, 08 Jul 2004 17:01:01 GMT

i got a new cell 609 384 4622

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 18:57:02 GMT

i hate my parents
i hate living at home
i was THIS close to leaving home
but i'm a pussy
and now im stuck here
miserable

long time no write

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 01:21:08 GMT

Summer is goin alright.
working a lot at the cafe...seeing wes a whole lot which is wonderful. life is quite boring at this point. got a hostessing job at Otts for monday tuesday and wednesday nights in hope to make LOTS of money this summer.
going camping in august with wes in virginia. skyline drive which is in the shenandaoh national park. going to be fabulous. thats all for now.

Sat, 15 May 2004 20:12:26 GMT

8 Fictional Characters You'd Love To Hang Out With:
1. Charlie Brown
2. Eric Forman
3. Chandler Bing and Joey Tribiani
4. Carrie Bradshaw
5. Samantha JOnes
6. Charlotte York
7. Miranda Hobbs
8. Cliff from Bring it On

7 Celebrities You'd Invite To Dinner:
1. Robert Downy Jr.
2. Bradd Pitt
3. Julia Roberts
4. Jake Gyllenhal
5. Molly Ringwald
6. Ashton Kutcher
7. Topher Grace

6 Things On Your desk:
1. my computer
2. a pencil holder
3. my phone
4. a light
5. a picture of wes
6. my high school diploma

5 Places You'd Like To Visit:
1. Hawaii
2. England
3. Japan
4. Mexico
5. South America

4 Things You Probably Don't Know About Me:
1. i don't know how to deal with stress
2. i have the best boyfriend in the world
3. im obsessive compulsive with having clean hands
4. my hair is three different colors

3 Things You Wish You Had Right Now:
1. a new car
2. a billion dollars
3. a house of my own

2 Names You Wish Were Your Own:
1. Maggie
2. Elizabeth

Day Of The Week You Love The Most:
1. Wednesday-my day off and the day where i will mostly be seeing wonderful wes

help me pick out next years schedule.

Wed, 14 Apr 2004 18:17:11 GMT

choice number 1:

monday
music history 9:50-11:10
theory 11:30-12:50
music ass. 1:10-2:30
Alg. 4:30-5:50

Tuesday
fundies 11:45-12:40
foundations 1:10-2:30
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30

wednesday
fundies 11:45-12:40
vocal tech. 2:50-4:10
Alg. 4:30-5:50

Thursday
music history 9:50-11:10
theory 11:30-12:50
foundations 1:10-2:30
string tech. 3:15-4:15
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30

Friday
Fundies 11:45-12:40

choice number 2:

monday
theory 11:30-12:50
music ass 1:10-2:30
music history 2:50-4:10
dev. of the US 4:30-5:50
Alg. 7:40-9:00

tuesday
fundies 11:45-12:40
foundations 1:10-2:30
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30

wednesday
fundies 11:45-12:40
music history 2:50-4:10
dev. of the us 4:30-5:50
Alg. 7:40-9:00

thursday
theory 11:30-12:50
foundations 1:10-2:30
Wind Ensemble 4:30-6:30

Friday
Fundies 11:45-12:40

Choice number 3:
instead of theory on monday and thursday it would be tues and thursday from 2:50-4:10

happy easter

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 05:06:55 GMT

Happy easter...

its 1:05 am..and i just rearranged my entire room. HA...

my room at home that is.

i have to wake up in 6 hours to shower..and then wes is coming..and we both get to sit thru 3 masses...well..i get to play..he gets to sit thru them...what a nice boy. FOOL! jk jk

happy easter yet again to all.

first night home

Sat, 13 Mar 2004 04:42:17 GMT

after tonight i never want to come home again. i have never felt so unwelcomed in my own home in my entire life.

my mother got on my back about EVERYTHING. by the end of the whole HOUR i was home i wound up in hysterics. too complicated to get into but it was bad. very bad. and very indeserved. can't wait for monday.

NYYS

Mon, 08 Mar 2004 21:02:12 GMT

So NYYS was yesterday. Certainly not what i expected. The first hornist showed up..had no recollection of her "not supposed to be there". I think they told me i was going to have to cover the whole first part by myself to scare the shit out of me. Well it worked. And running to catch a train that took forever to get there didn't help much. But alas, we arrived..i was almost in tears out of pure fear. Got into the church to see audrey the first hornist there..so that was a relief. too much relief...turns out i play like 200 out of the 2000 measures in the entire piece. saw nick lenchner there?? crazy? yes. so i went up to him and said hello...he's like.."oh you played...the viola?" "no...actually the violin" (meanwhile my horn is in my hands) so he's like "what are you doing here then?" "Oh just filling in a spot." and then he says "you look a lot different"...and that was pretty much the content of our little chat. found out he goes to montclaire..which i already knew..but i felt bad not asking..cause he asked me wher ei was going. anyway..so yea..i dont have to go back to NYYS for like a month..being that i barely ever play. thats good news.

glad thats over.

ugh

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 15:52:13 GMT

tomorrow i go to NY for the new york youth symphony..
gonna screw it up.
gonna screw it up.
gonna screw it up.

did i mention im going to screw it up? yea.

oh and the first chair hornist isn't coming..so i have to cover the entire first part.

did i mention the Mahler 5 has the hardest horn parts like..ever?

did i mention that i SUCK? oh yea..i forgot.

people keep telling me that this is an awesome opportunity and that its every horn players dream.

its just causing me unnessesary stress...but of course i want to do well..of course i want to perform with them..of course i want to play in carnegie hall..who wouldn't?

time for a lesson and a long day in the library studying the score...

what a wonderful weekend.

kristin will make me famous for this idea.

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 21:59:05 GMT

this is only the starts...i need your input.

100 things to remember when going to Mason Gross for music:

1) Think of your instrument as your significant other and avoid the opposite sex.
2)Even though your a music major, the prices of books are still going to ream you.
3) 8:30am fundies: 3 words: eight hour sleep. get it, or die trying. You will not want to sing atonal melodies on 3 hours of sleep like half the mason gross freshman class does.
4) You'll be in the same classes with most of these people for the rest of your undergraduate career...it's a small school. Do yourself a favor and try to stay on most people's good side.
5) College is like highschool in that the main drive is drama. Gossip doesn't stop after highschool, unfortunately.

thats all i have so far. leave comments and i'll add them.

school friends.

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 16:55:48 GMT

http://community.webshots.com/album/121214596UsDKbu

way to misquote me

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 03:23:15 GMT

http://www.thnt.com/thnt/story/0,21282,906527,00.html
thats the article.

http://www.getouttoday.com/win/makeover-winner0104.htm
thats the pictures..click on mine to get the before and after.

thats all for now.
enjoy

Wed, 11 Feb 2004 21:53:03 GMT

Valentine's day is coming faster than expected. I have a strange feeling this is going to be a very good valentine's day. Going to go the opera on Friday with Greg to see Romeo and Julliette. Should be enjoyable.

OH had my audition for the NYYS...
I personally think it went really well..the guy i played for was really hard to read tho. Couldn't tell if he was pleased or quite disapointed. If i don't get in i won't be too disapointed because I'll know i'm just not up to that level of playing yet. No big deal RIGHT? ha.

OK--time to get some work done.

Wed, 04 Feb 2004 16:26:44 GMT

So sunday i have an audition for the New York Youth Symphony...

Scared out of my mind...i have to learn all these different orchestral excerpts for it. Gonna try to cram Tchaik. no. 5 2nd movt, Some Mahler 5, maybe Holst's Jupiter. Hopefully i don't get nervous...and screw it up...cause it would be...more than awesome to be able to do Mahler 5 with them..did i mention i'd be playing assit FIRST?...yea..this is MAJOR...and i would get to play in Carnegie Hall in May...i've never even SEEN the place...

So i think my parents are going to come up on sunday and drive me into the city for it..thank God..i almost had to go in alone...that would have been scary.

thats all for now...freshman auditions saturday! hooray new faces!!

Fri, 30 Jan 2004 03:03:30 GMT

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

anyway.
lifes good. schools ok. people are great.

end of story.

Since everyone else is doin it....

Tue, 13 Jan 2004 21:27:49 GMT

Here's my schedule this semester:

Monday:
8:10-9:30 Principles of Lit.
9:50-11:10 Theory
1:10-2:30 Music Ass.

Tuesday:
8:30-9:15 Fundies
11:30-12:50 Brass Tech.
4:30-6:30 WE (if i make it again)

Wednesday:
8:30-9:15 Fundies
2:50-4:10 Percussion Tech.

Thursday:
8:10-9:30 Principles of Lit.
9:50-11:10 Theory
1:10-2:30 Intro to Music Ed.
4:30-6:30 WE

Friday:
8:30-9:15 Fundies

Thursdays are gonna be rough...very very rough...especially if i have a lesson that day.

Wed, 07 Jan 2004 23:12:47 GMT

1)using band names, spell out your name:

Junecold..HAHAHA
Everclear
Nine inch nails
Norah Jones
Apple, Fiona

2) have you ever had a song written about you? no..but my parents switched the name from "oh donna" to "oh jenna"

3) what song makes you cry? hey ya...reminds me of the good days

4) what song makes you happy? the way you look tonight, frank sinatra

a p p e a r a n c e

height: 5'1
hair color: brown
skin color: not as tan as i'd like
eye color: brown
piercings: 2 in each ear
tattoos: none

r i g h t n o w

what color pants are you wearing?: blue jeans
what song are you listening to?: not listening to any
what taste is in your mouth?: metal..from my mouthpiece
how do you feel?: content..and confused

d o y o u

get motion sickness?: when im not driving..yes
have a bad habit?: a have lots of bad habits
get along with your parents?: sometimes
like to drive?: yes

f a v o r i t e s

book: bridget jones's diary
non alcoholic drink: orange juice
alcoholic drink: anything that doens't taste like alcohol..oh wait...haha that leaves nothing then!
thing to do on the weekend: be with friends

h a v e y o u

broken the law: lmao...fire alarms what??
ran away from home: nope
snuck out of the house: nope
ever gone skinny dipping: nope
made a prank phone call: nope
skipped school before:
been in a school play: ive been in the pit

l o v e

Girlfriend/Boyfriend: who the hell knows
children: HA
current crush: more than a crush
been in love: once
had a hard time getting over someone: very hard
your greatest regret: saying things too soon

r a n d o m

your cd player has in it right now: norah jones
what makes you happy?: friends, school, music

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t

time you cried: when the "break" occured..i cried for like..3 days straight
you got e-mail: looong time ago
thing you purchased: gas for my car
movie you watched: i just watched a really cute movie..."i'm with lucy" with molly potter

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n

abortion: no thoughts
teenage smoking: its a gross habit
spice girls: i wake up to them at school :)
dreams: rule

Wed, 31 Dec 2003 23:09:37 GMT

TAKE ME HOME

Sun, 28 Dec 2003 23:45:00 GMT

psychically i feel a million times better, now im just battling a cold. mentally, also much better, as long as i don't think about it. i really miss school. i miss the people. 3 more Godforesaken weeks. I haven't even been able to practice all that much yet....
anyway. i'm actually going to rutgers tomorrow to hang. that should be fun....ok---goin...later

Tue, 23 Dec 2003 02:13:46 GMT

I have pnemonia :(

and my heart is broken.

thank God i am sick..because its getting my mind off what i know i really want to be thinking about.

Sun, 21 Dec 2003 06:37:09 GMT

i have never felt this way in my entire life.
never felt so low.
felt so vulnerable.
so alone.
so dead.

someone rescue me, i think i'm falling down an endless hole.

so its quickly approaching

Fri, 19 Dec 2003 16:29:52 GMT

T minus 4 hours until i head home for 4 weeks.

i'm starting to get a little upset....why does it feel like its ending for good!!!!!! i know i'll be back here in 4 weeks for another 5 months...and after that another 4 years!! ugh..im gonna miss everyone here so much..i already woke up thinking that i was going to see everyone that i use to see everyday..(aka john ashley meredith everyone else that went home).

So to all my college friends...I MISS YOU and i will SEE YOU IN FOUR WEEKS! merry christmas, happy new year... :(

jury time is less than 3 hours away..must go get ready. wish me luck.

A feeling of indifference.

Fri, 19 Dec 2003 02:58:24 GMT

I want to go home.
I don't want to go home.
I want to see my family and friends.
When am i going to see my friends/boyfriend at home? never.
I want to be in my own room.
I love my dorm room.
I want Christmas to come.
I have barely any presents for people cause i'm poor.
I want to make money.
I don't feel like going thru this next week..so many jobs/rehersals.
I want to be able to practice 5 hours a day.
I know that won't happen at home.

ok....so i really am looking foward to being home..don't get me wrong. It will be a REALLY nice break from school. But i don't need four weeks to relax...gimme maybe a week or two. All my school friends are spread out!...:(...
give me the strength to get through the next four weeks!
I miss john and its been like 5 hours...maybe its cause i know he isn't a 10 minute walk away right now.
i tried to cheer myself up about everything by trying to have a sleepover..but wound up kickin everyone out cause i just felt like being alone and sleeping.

Jury tomorrow..not nervous what so ever...i don't know if thats a good thing or a bad thing. We'll see i guess.
ok--im out,